Thorns, Roses, Rosebuds 2011 edition

My tweepie @jana0926 is once again doing her annual "Thorns, Roses, and Rosebuds" post and I am going to participate again. You can read her full story of where it comes from at jana's thinking place. She challenged her readers to do a similar post, so this is mine. One thorn, two roses and three rosebuds.

Thorn = a not-so-fun/bad/sad thing that happened

Rose = the highlight, a wonderful thing that happened this year

Rosebud = something you are looking forward to for next year

Thorn- My thorn. Well, I think for me it is the disappointment in myself for letting so many things slide. This blog, first and foremost. I just haven't put the time, thought and effort into it that I was previously investing. But there are other things in my life I've let slide too, for instance exercising and going to the gym, taking classes, writing my daily pages, and keeping up with my google reader and all the blogs of all my buddies that I love reading every week. 

( I am purposely avoiding the still-a-thorn financial situation because I am just sick of thinking about it)

Roses- My first rose for 2011 is the writing opportunity I have had this year. I've been writing feature stories on a regular basis for our hometown newspaper. I actually started late in 2010, but I am still going to count it as a rose for this year. I know it's goofy, and it's just a small town paper, and it's nothing big or life changing or bank account padding. But you know what? I freaking love it! And I get a check. For writing! Wow, I just can't tell you how that is such a dream come true for me.

My second rose for this year is...well...it's hard to say. It just hasn't been an over-the-top year for us in any way. I guess the second rose is that my husband and I have opened up a line of communication and are being much more open with each other than ever before. We've always been extremely close, and reaching a new level after 17+ years of marriage isn't easy, but this has added a new level to our relationship and I am so thankful for this.

Rosebuds- My first rosebud for 2012 is that maybe, possibly, hopefully... there might just be a light at the end of the financial tunnel. I hope. I also hope it's not just the train.

My second rosebud is that I am looking forward to meeting new people, seeing new things and going to new places this year. My writing for the newspaper has allowed me to meet people I never would have otherwise and I LOVE it. I am learning that everyone really does have a story, and I consider myself lucky to be the one to tell it.

My third rosebud is an opportunity I have to do more writing in what is a new medium for me. I remember the days when I never wanted anyone to read the pieces I wrote. Now? I love sharing my thoughts. And I love getting paid for it.

And I love all my friends, bloggy friends, tweepies, and readers. Heres a glass raised to kicking 2011 in the ass!!! And I hope your 2012 is full of blooms!

Thorns, Roses & Rosebuds

This post is in response to another blog I read yesterday. My tweepie @jana0926 posted on her blog something that she does daily with her little boy that I think is an awesome idea. You can read her full story of where it comes from at jana's thinking place. She challenged her readers to do a similar post, so this is mine.

Thorn = a not-so-fun/bad/sad thing that happened

Rose = the highlight, a wonderful thing that happened

Rosebud = something you are looking forward to

Thorn- I really, truly only have one thorn this year, our financial situation. Unlike a lot of people I don't blame the government, I don't blame anyone but us. I know looking back at choices we made exactly why we are here right now. Some days it makes it easier, but most days it is still just hard.

I attended school full time from 07-09 and worked only a few hours per week during those two years. We burned through our rather generous savings account during this time. We sold not one, but two houses in 2009, one at the beginning of the recession and the other smack in the worst part of the fall of 2009. We had put a lot of time and money into rehabbing the second, and didn't recoup it during the sale. Why did we sell when we did? Well, my husband lost his job in Pennsylvania and we decided we wanted to move back to the south. When he landed a job, it was at a fraction of his former salary. But it helped us get back home. So, 2010 has been a year like the two of us have never seen, financially, since the early days of our marriage 16 years ago. Our life right now is literally paycheck to paycheck for the first time in probably 14 years. We have nothing in our savings account for the first time in 10 years. I haven't found a job here. It is hard. But we'll make it through, with lots of hard work. I know we will.

Roses- My first rose for 2010 is my weight loss. It has been about so much more than just being a smaller person, it has let me be the person I used to be. It has changed me physically, mentally, and emotionally. I am not done, but I have lost about 80% of what I wanted to lose, and I feel like a real person again. It wasn't easy, and keeping it off will be even harder, but it has pushed me into wanting to be fit and knowing that the only way I can keep feeling good is to continue to exercise and eat healthy.

My second rose for 2010 is the flash of realization I had last April, and all that it encompasses. Turning my life around, figuring out a life plan, knowing I want to write, writing 50,000 words toward a novel during National Novel Writing Month, seeing my first published pieces in the local paper and receiving seeing my first paycheck from writing. Wow! What a year. Just goes to show that when you KNOW what you want, you have more confidence and things just fall into place. I heard people say this for more years than I care to count, and I was always so jealous and resentful that they found their true passion. I know now that getting there takes a tough journey and a lot of introspection, and sometimes seeking out something way beyond your comfort level.

Rosebuds- My first rosebud for 2011 is that I am enrolled at WKU to finish up a bachelor's degree. I am so excited about taking my first ever writing classes that I can't stand it. I know it will be hard, and possibly soul-crushing at times, but I am really looking forward to it, and feel so fortunate to have received a small scholarship this year to assist me in returning.

My second rosebud is that I have 3 big design projects to finish up in 2011 and I am looking forward to getting more design work once those are completed and out in the world. I am looking forward to being paid for all the hard work I put in this year, of course, but I also think I will get more leads from these three clients than I had all year last year.

My third rosebud is that I am looking forward to getting back to exercising and getting my body firmed up from my weight loss. I can't wait to be back in shape. Losing so much weight so quickly leaves your body in such a state, I don't even want to go into it. But I am looking forward to continuing yoga, water aerobics, walking and maybe adding Zumba in there somewhere.

This year has been pretty amazing, really. It has been more financially difficult than I could have ever imagined facing in my 40's, but I think in the end we are going to learn spending restraint and many other valuable lessons from our horrible 2010. I can't complain, they are probably lessons we needed to learn anyway. I am looking forward to some great things happening in 2011 and have been spending my week mapping out all the goodness that will go on to get me where I want to be in 2012.

I want to add another rose actually, for which I am so very thankful this year. It is something wrapped up in my realization, but deserves mentioning on its own. I am so happy to be making writer friends in the virtual world, simpatico people who are like me and who are better than me. Who make me laugh and inspire me, who challenge me and who make me think. I love all of you shiny new friends.

If you want to meet some of my bloggie friends and participate in Jana's challenge here's what ya' do:

1. Grab the button (should be able to cut/paste this into your post):

href=”http://www.janasthinkingplace.com”><img src=”http://janasthinkingplace.com/wordpress/wp-content/uploads/2010/12/35316d1114304ddf905d56a130916ddc_5-1.jpg” border=”0″ />

2. Write your post and link back to me in it!! Let’s do ONE thorn, TWO roses and THREE rosebuds. Or, whatever you want to do!

3. Come back here and leave a comment with your link to your blog’s post!

4. Have a WONDERFUL 2011!

PS from Ms. Marsha:

Take time to plan your life for 2011! I know you can do it, don't just let life be something that happens to you, LIVE IT!!!!